in the dream i was wandering around in the middle of the ocean. i was walking through the water and looking for you. i kept asking myself why did you leave. then i kept asking myself why did i care? why was i going to the ends of the earth to find you if you were just going to get up and leave again? what am i trying to prove? i could be doing better things right now or interacting with people who cared. i started to worry about what i was doing out there in the middle of the ocean, but then the seagulls arrived. they flew around over my head and headed north. i woke up.